✅Irritable

ya
what's on my mind?


V1:
Have you ever felt so empty?
Buried deep in your emotions
Short fused ,That the slightest •trigger leaves you so overwhelming angry?
So Scared of the state of being mentally capable of hurting yourself or someone else
-Do you know what its like to remember •standing outside of your parents bed~room~door -
late at night with a knife?. (No)

--I struggle with it on a Daily basis
A never ending war between me and the face in the face in the dark place
If my body is the house
Then my mind is trapped in the basement
And every time it comes around the lights go out, it locks me in
I've no choice but to face it
Ya I'm scared but I'm not afraid
If It wants my life it can try to come and take it
I can't -*run away but even if I could I wouldn't cause i doubt i'd even fuckin make it/

"leave me alone!"
It won't let me go

I've already tried many times before
I gave up that approach a long time ago
Cause it fooled me once
I/ found a way n I made an escape
I was living night after night, and day after day
That A year went by
I was doing just fine!/

-I had gotten away,
But then i realized that on 13'th day of the 13'th month,
at exactly 13 a clock, i had fallen asleep on the floor of my bathroom next to the sink which is right underneath the mirror,
i blacked out, i woke up, i was back in the same place
how? I was out and about,
Lookin' forward to the days ahead/

Livin' my life like i was out of lifelines
-That/second chance at life was a lie
A ruse, devised by the vary thing
I thought I managed to elude
My /state of mind /was compromised
Sometimes I just wanted to close my eyes and go sleep and never wake up
Like i just wanted ta' call it quits, " that's it, you win motha fucka, now can you let me' die"

01:39
No one save me
No one, no one can save me
But I, alone
Whoa

2:10
Verse2:
It's cold in here,but I'm still alive ,
still breathin'- imprisoned inside mind
My hearts still beatin',
If you're reading, don't stop
If you can hear me, please god
No, don't pause, Keep listening,
If you can't then I'll try screaming
If This letter is to be found at the scene along with my body
I either met my demise
Or made it barely alive with her by my side

But If I die let the reader/listener be advised I never gave in,
I fought till the vary end,
put up one hell of a fight
stood before that mirror
looked me dead in the eyes

It's you or I!

No more games-lets cut to the chase
I'm killing you or you're killing me
But either way tonight only one of us is gonna survive
That's right,
this is the last time
You fuck with my mind, i'm not lyin'
You chose the wrong person
I'm happy guy but ever since you invaded, I'm pissed off all the fuckin' time
And my only excuse is to blame my parents because they lied
is that it!?
The way to beat you Is For me to let go?
I can finally defeat you
"Mom and dad, i love you and I forgive you!"